The Unstable Atom

Reflecting over life through weird, crazy, ever changing, euphoric, absurd, confused and at times impartial lenses -a journey of curiosity and questions with my two alter egos.. as I try to fall out of the stagnation of instability.. or the desperate attempt to remain..

There is this one place. Somewhere inside, perhaps it was somewhere outside once. Perhaps there were many such with the same texture to them. There is rain pouring, there is a chill in the air.. There are people around, many, a preparation, hard work, late nights.. A secret urge, an acute attraction, brief stolen glances, a sudden meeting of eyes and hurried turning away with a small smile to self.. There is a longing to experience it.. This nostalgia exists when the experience doesn't! :) There is a song (Paus asa runazunata). There is a painful craving to have it within as it is outside.. This nostalgia, to have it fully. It is like a dream, from an unknown place, somehow visited in the mind.. Perhaps someday again.. We will be young, younger.. carefree, with possibilities.. More possibilities and a freedom from ourselves, to choose. :) The rain, the clouds.. and some more.. a longing..