The Unstable Atom

Reflecting over life through weird, crazy, ever changing, euphoric, absurd, confused and at times impartial lenses -a journey of curiosity and questions with my two alter egos.. as I try to fall out of the stagnation of instability.. or the desperate attempt to remain..

So many of them! The come in all shapes, sizes and colors.. It difficult for a person like me, who is almost bipolar (not entirely), to be able to make decisions. When there is a constant conflict inside with respect to anything, when both choices (assuming there are two) seem to be OK. This phenomenon is observed at times for the smallest of decisions, for example which side of the bed to get down from! :O haha.. At times the choice is very simple. At times it also helps to have a third person's perspective. And a third person meaning someone who is not remotely associated with your situation. A sounding board. At times i wish i don't have to take a decision, mostly in situations which are not going to be fair to anyone involved. I'm surprised about the frequency of me getting into such situations! :O Nonetheless it is me who has to take the decision or else things would never move forward. It is so difficult to think from all aspects. People close to you want you to take the right decision. But how can you know what is right and what is wrong while you are taking the decision if you don't know what lays ahead? They want you to think from all sides, but there is always a possibility for variable change! And you cannot account for it really while taking the decision. So it is possible that down the line your decision would end up being the wrong one. Now the question remains so what if it ends up being wrong? If i let someone else decide for the the odds are the same that their decision would be wrong too! So rather i buck up and take a decision. Come what may! You tend to be a bit cautious when your decision is going to affect those close to you, the people you care for and those who care for you. However if you do matter to them and they matter to you, and your decision with respect to them ends up being wrong you would always be given a chance for amends right? And even if you are not, you will know where you stand! So well, a decision it is! Made in the head ready to be taken, with shaking hands and watered eyes.. Nothing is written in stone when it comes to life.. So lets bring it on..!!

We all know the famous anecdote about the pessimist and the optimist talking about how the glass if half empty or half full. I was wondering about that and a thought came to my mind. When a pessimist says that the glass is half empty, he obviously does see the water (or whatever else you want) in it and then he sees the empty space, so it could be possible that he sees an opportunity for the glass to be filled further. In thinking this maybe he is being hopeful or more optimist about new opportunities and possibilities for being better. Whereas the so called optimist just sees what is there and then stops at it. Taking this perspective perhaps its good to appreciate what you already have (like the optimist does) but isn't it better to look for what more can be done? And how you can improve even further with a hope and belief that it indeed is possible since the glass is half empty! :) Something to think about?