The Unstable Atom

Reflecting over life through weird, crazy, ever changing, euphoric, absurd, confused and at times impartial lenses -a journey of curiosity and questions with my two alter egos.. as I try to fall out of the stagnation of instability.. or the desperate attempt to remain..

The endless void of gazing into nothing.. Except the screens.. The laptop screen, the phone screen the tv screen..
The joy of healthy physical strain gives some respite at the end of the day.. But the latest attack of boredom is really taking a toll. Though I will finally be doing a bit of something i've always wanted to do this weekend.. Its still a whole week to go! And then what after that?!?! There is a thought of doing something over and above my job. But it requires investment, and a lot of time.. which i have but can't be invested the way it should be. So the boredom hacks at everything in sight. Much to my agony insanity too takes a back seat! So its just a dull haze all over..
Some respite comes from the rain.. Haven't written about him yet this time around.. He just eased himself.. or maybe the anticipation was too much this time around..
The lull which comes from no action or seeming inaction is frustrating leading to imprudent lashes for action. Which end up in even more frustration!! haha.. Its funny actually.. But back to the moping and venting.
No respite comes from the fact that everyone around me is traveling! So that's one area i can still improvise on. Some more home improvement plans are in mind involving some aquatic animals. The plan is in place only the wait for gold is in process(duh! as usual).
Everything just seems to have gone very eerily quiet.. And its not calm its just strange loud crack of silence. Perhaps the calm before a storm? Definitely has that quality. Or perhaps my mind playing tricks yet again :|
Shut up already.
Well so much so for the ranting. Though there is nothing much going on seems like a lot is going on in other people's lives. :| LOL.
Waiting for some more showers or atleast clouds.. Makes me wonder if this is all there is to life.. and if i'm done living.. But I'm sure there is more.. and this is not at all even half of it.. I guess this is the wait and learn phase :| which i so hate! But no option..
So signing off till something happens! :D